Monday, July 27, 2009

Bug Bites and Life lessons.

In a recent meeting with the bishop, we were explaining to him that you can get a lot of information on people through public record; where somebody works, lives, jobs they've had, when and what they've been to court for and any warrants or crimes they have on their records. He said that that seems like an invasion of a person's privacy. Well i have two things to say about that. First, if you have nothing to hide, then why worry? Second, if you are a bad person that has done bad things, then you don't have any rights. or shouldn't at least. Since when should the bad evil people be protected. That being said, we have had the terrible misfortune of having gotten involved with some of these bad, evil people. People who are so bored with their lives they try and destroy other people's lives. It is sad and disappointing all at the same time. If i had to do it again, i would do things differently. I would listen to that little voice inside that says 'don't get involved' and i would never have had to deal with the hurt and stress and fear this has caused me. On the other hand; I am one of those people who has nothing to hide. My conscience is clear as glass. I am a law abiding citizen, working to make my life the best it can be. For that reason, i have no regrets. While i regret the events that caused us to get in this situation in the first place, i do not regret my actions or how i have handled myself. I know that i am a good person and i will continue to be a good person because that is who i am. That was how i was raised. I was raised with valued and beliefs that i hold firm to in any situation. Unfortunately that cannot be said about everyone. It is sad and frustrating that there are truly bad people in this world. People who are out to get us every step of the way. But I won't let that fact bring me down. I'm stronger, I'm better. We Have to go on living our lives the way that we want to;so that when we stand before our Maker on judgment day, we can say, "I gave it my all. I am not ashamed." I once read a quote that said "If you were convicted of being christian, would there be enough evidence to convict you?" I am going to live my life in a way that creates a load of evidence that i am worthy to be in his presence. I cannot let these little 'bug bites' as I like to call them get in the way of who I am. It makes so much sense in theory, but in practice is much harder. It is so easy to let the poison of other people infect our system and make us bitter and angry. As humans, we want justice, revenge, or the satisfaction of knowing that this person is suffering as much as they made us suffer. But the MOST important thing i have learned is to just let it all go and keep being a good person despite what has been done to you. It really is that simple. And like the words from a true, good friend "the only person who matters already knows what's going on" . Let other people think what they may, but in the end, the only person that needs to know already does. It's amazing the lessons you learn in life when you least expect them, or even when you least want them. But I do honestly feel like I will come out of this better than I was, with an even greater sense of wanting to make good choices and be a better person. And sometimes, to grow is to hurt, but who would return to smallness.