In the Springtime of Our Lives

Wow. I'm glad that I update this thing regularly. That is because my life is soooooo terribly exciting. And I'm not a sarcastic person in case you haven't figured that out. Seriously though, nothing worth writing about has really happened so I've just been hanging out. I am about to be jobless as of the 17th, which is proving to be more of a blessing in disguise rather. I'm too stressed and busy to deal with it all. I got a sub job at a preschool and I love it. It has been so much fun and I love my kiddos. I hope that they will give me enough hours to make a good living. I am also tutoring a 7 year old korean boy on the side which is a new experience. The ONLY reason I mentioned his race is because it has been such a great experience for me, not only tutoring and getting that experience, but getting more culturally diverse as well. His family is so kind and treats me with such respect. They always want to give me food. It has been a really neat thing for me learning about the Korean culture and experiencing new foods. Basically life is moving at full speed right now, not slowing down for anything. This train doesn't stop. But it's good. I'm happy. I'm doing the things I want to do and doing things I never imagined I would get to. I really cannot complain. Now if only summer would just decide to come!

What's Going On?

In the Words of Marvin Gaye,
"What's going on
Ya, what's going on
Tell me what's going on
I'll tell you what's going on "-

This has been on my mind a lot lately. I was recently speaking to a 60 year old man on the phone at work who asked me if I could come shoot him and end his life. I kindly replied that I could not do that, that I would not do that. As if to change my mind, he told me that he would buy the ammo. He had been at working doing security and fell down a flight of stairs breaking both his legs. He is now in bed, in pain all day and as he puts it "hobbles around like a 90 year old." While this gentlemen may not have been serious, it really hit me hard. What is going on in the world today? It is getting pretty scary out there. This gentlemen was simply trying to make ends meet and now, with his temporarily disabled state, he feels like it would be better to just end his life. My husband and I have had some pretty scary and potentially deadly experiences this last month and I mentioned to him "I think it's getting close to our time!" I know that I am not the only one feeling confused and scared by what is going on in the world. It really is true that the world is getting more wicked, but with talks of failing economies and wars, it is a scary reality we are facing. People are becoming desperate which leads to robberies and murders. What's going on? I am glad that I know the things that I know and have the friends and family that I do to get me through this scary and uncertain times. While I do not believe that the end is near, I do believe it is getting closer and it is a hard time to be alive. All I can do is hold on to my beliefs and the ones I love and we will get through this together!

BUSY

Well since it's been forever and a day since I wrote last, I guess I can update you on the exciting events happening in my life: NOTHING!~ School has been keeping me insanely busy and my house is proof of that. My laundry keeps on piling up, as does the homework. I am in full teacher mode right now with the Parent Teacher Aid store being my new favorite! Oh! And I found out that I won't have a job as of april 17th so that's going to be an adventure. Right now my main focus is getting through school; surviving is second to that!!!!

School Days

So, school started up again, and I have to admit, it wasn't horrible. I am finally in the Education program which means I am done with pre-requisites and get to take only classes that are related to my major. AND I only have 3 semesters left, and a few months of student teaching and I'm done! I did things differently this semester in hopes to save money. You would think that I would have caught on before now, but better late than never. I was able to defer my tuition so I hopefully wont have to borrow any from my sweet Dad. Also I am borrowing some books from friends and turned to Amazon and Ebay for the books I still need, since the bookstore is a BIG FAT RIP OFF. I like my classes because they have all the same people in them that I will be with for the next year and a half. They all seem like really nice girls and I was excited to see some old friends, especially Arynn and Lindsay who I haven't seen in a long time and now I get to see three times a week! So this semester should be alright. It will be tight since my hours are cut, but we just have to get through 4 months! I also applied for FAFSA so I really hope that I get something! That would be a huge help and a blessing. We will just try and get through this semester and keep our hopes up high. Graduation is just around the corner, I can't taste it yet, but I can smell it, and it smells so good!

Money Money Money, Must be funny......

Just when you think things are getting better, you get a big ol wake up call. It sounds like this "Juliann, What were you thinking? " And then it throws things at you- big, ugly, scary, rotten, messy things.

I wish I could say that January got off to a good start, but that would be a lie. I knew January was going to be a tough month for us, and it only seems to keep getting tougher. It seems as though every single bill that we have is due this month in large quantities. Also, as they always do, some unexpected things happen that are going to spread us even tighter. To make matters worse, I am only going to get about 9 hours a week at work this semester.

We had one last hope that we were hanging on to and it doesn't look like that hope is going to happen unfortunately. It was the one thing we wanted more than anything else in the world right now. And I am slowly accepting defeat.

The well is running dry and my hope is running out. My faith however, will remain plentiful. This has to be left in the Lord's hands. There is honestly no other way for it to work out otherwise. We are in need of a miracle. I know, I have to believe, that the Lord has a plan for us. It's probably killing him to put us through this now but he's saying to himself "just wait, I promise that what I have in store for you is worth it." I have to believe this. I have nothing else.

Hopefully we will survive these next couple of months. If not, who has dibs on the fish tank? TV? Cars? Let me know, I'm taking orders as of now.

One year older and Wiser too.....

You knew I was going to blog today didn't you? Well, I just have to- because a year ago today, was the best day of my life. I married my best friend, the man that makes me the happiest I've ever been- and that is worth writing about!

Well, I woke up today and there was no snow, so that was the first good thing that happened. You see, on our wedding day it was the snowiest day of the year! It was quite disastrous to say the least, but the important thing was that I was sealed to Michael for time and all eternity.

This first year has been quite the adjustment. The first couple months of marriage were a blast but I look back and see how much we have grown right alongside with each other. At first, looking at him gave me butterflies and I was giddy and unsure about life. Now, I have the deepest love for him and I know that love will continue growing each passing year. I look at him and I cannot believe that I get to keep him for ever. I am so much more confident about life and less timid and unsure about being a wife. We work so well together. It was not always like this but now I am able to look past his faults and love him for who he is and what he means to me. I can honestly say that I could not live without him. He is everything to me. He makes my life what it is.

I can't believe this year has gone by so incredibly fast. I am sad that I am not a "Newlywed" anymore, but in that there is some comfort. I have comfort knowing that if we could make it through that first year, we can make through anything. I firmly believe that. I am grateful everyday for the Man that the lord has blessed me with. For his unique perspective, his easy going nature, his warmth, his sense of fun and for everything that I am learning from him. I hope the next year will be even better than the first. I love you Michael Lambson!!!!!

Our First Christmas

Christmas came and went way too fast this year! And it was not what I expected, it was much, much more! My amazing husband went above and beyond and proved to me what a thoughtful person he is. I really was not expecting anything from him for Christmas. We don't have a lot of money and it just did not seem like it was going to happen. My husband had all my gifts wrapped the night before and even snuck out during the night to fill my stocking. It was so cute. He got me several presents that I really enjoy; David Archuleta, a cook book, a really pretty necklace, a purple soft bath robe, Wall E and some other little goodies. While I was over joyed at how thoughful and well prepared my husband was, It was so nice just spending time with him. We put in our new CD's and just snuggled on the couch, and then we danced! It snowed like cr-cr-cr-crazy and we braved the snow and went to my parents house where we had a great time spending time with each other. Mom made a great Dinner and got us amazing presents. After that, we went and saw bedtime stories with our friend and then came home, made tacos (the boys wanted to try out the hot sauce that my mom had gotten mike) and watched Wall E. It was a great first christmas and I am so thankful to have a husband that loves me so much!!!!!!! Until Next Year!